Problem solved?

Well it would seem that my sleeping problem is sorting it's self out. As I write this I'm quite literally on my last legs for the day, perhaps it's because I had an early start (well recently at least), getting up at 11am when you've been getting up at 3-4pm is a bit of a shock to the system, it's still light for a start! However I laugh in the face of such logical thinking, although at the moment it seems to be more of a groaning chuckle, such is my energy level. Hopefully by tomorrow I'll be back to normal, another 11am start and another day where something has gone wrong with the bowling club...

It's nothing but stress, it's no wonder I've hardly got any work done, I'm spending too much time chasing after people who have screwed up, or sprung something on me at the last minute. Just this evening I was getting ready to actually do some work, when I get a phone call from a mate saying I was supposed to be in a meeting about the union's entertainment, ok so maybe I'm partly to blame for forgetting it, but ringing me ten minutes into the meeting hardly helps things, I haven't walked that fast in years!

I'm giving serious thought to letting something go at uni, I'm on the entertainment committee, the Elections committee, the bowling club committee, as well as a designer for the union paper, then there's the course work that has to be done, I've signed up for the gym (and paid £55 for the year) not gone yet because I've been too busy. It's all getting a bit much for me, I knew at the beginning of term that I was maybe trying to do too much but I thought I'd be able to handle it, I've dealt with a lot of stress in my, quite possibly more than the average person my age. Alas things do seem to be getting on top of me, especially my current financial status, I'm at least £400 in debt and that's not counting my Student Loan (£8500) or Student account (£1400 od) and all I get is £200 a month from the parents to cover food, bills, and something remembering a social life... ARGH!

Of course if I were to give something up the first thing to go would be the Elections Committee because I got stitched up into doing it. I'm really hesitant about giving up my place in the bowling club committee, although it is the one that takes up the most time and by far produces the most stress, Bowling is my "Thing" it's the one thing I excel at (I'm the 10th best student in the country!) I've worked long and hard to make sure I could get into the Chairman position, to be in the position where I could make solid changes to the club to make it better, most of which I've done but alas the sheer bureaucracy of the union makes it very difficult for the club to have a "normal" week. Grant allocation forms that have space for things that they won't give to anyone (but neglect to tell you) certain aspects of logic just seem to disappear when ever I enter the union, it's all about who you know, and I know most of the people in power but it still doesn't seem to be enough.

Of course I feel as though I'm totally failing my club and its members, every event so far this term has been a very last minute thing, mainly because no one is backing me up and reminding me of events that are coming up. For example no one reminded me that entry forms for a big tournament were due in by Jan 4th, how do I know this because someone who has nothing to do with the university mentioned it on a forum completely detached from the university. So of course I'm in panic mode again because term ends this Friday and I have no idea who wants to go and weather we can actually afford the trip.

I don't know maybe I'm asking too much of the union to lend a helping hand and give the odd reminder, it doesn't have to be much just a simple email a month before saying that it's coming up would be enough. Instead I get a phone call at 4-5pm two days before hand asking me what's going on? Well thank you very fucking much for being fucking helpful!

Sorry for the language but that's how I feel, it's just so damn annoying, the union does jack shit to help me, and the rest of the bowling club committee expects me to everything, and the few things they do do they have a go at me for if I ask them to make a minor change. One of them has accused me saying that he was shit at everything and that I should do it if I think he's so shit at it, yeah great just what I need more fucking work to do, thanks a lot!

Maybe I should just pack it all in and get on with my masters...

This is Benji Dude, asking you to take a walk in my shoes... or be stomped on by my angry feet.