Memories of Days Past

I thought you were just a memory of my past
I thought I had moved on
But you’ve come back into my life
Crashed into the present

Why can I not let the past go?
Why do you have such a hold over my life?
Just hearing your name is torture
My hart skips when I see a picture of you

We nearly had something once upon a time
Why did we not try harder?
Do you dare live the dream?
Will I get the fairytale ending?

I sent you a message
I’ll never know if you read it
Were my words so harsh?
Is what happened between us so painful?

I lie awake at night
Wondering how you felt about me
Did you like me?
Were you just toying with my hart?

I can’t change what happened
But I’m more of a man now
If only you could understand
If only you could see the man I am now

You’re as beautiful now
As when I first saw you
This will never change
You are my first love

If only you’d respond in kind
Give me a chance to close the door
The chance to move on
And leave the past behind

I only seek answers
Answers to simple questions
No matter the result
My life will be transformed for the better

Why must you do this to me?
Now, just like you did back then
Keeping busy
So I don’t think about you

Will I ever be able to let go?
Will you give me the chance?
You gave me hope once
Is it too much to ask for it again?