Yay! I'm another year older today! Grand old age of 24. I'll be collecting my pension before you know it! Overall it's been a good day, although my lie in was rudely interrupted by the damn cat first wanting to be feed then she wanted to be let out. Never mind though it's a minor blip on an otherwise great day.
Birthday wishes are nice, and they're even nicer when they're from a girl, and I had two girls send me their best today! Two! This is a monumentus occasion! Especially as I didn't have to say a word to either of them, it just made the day all the better.
Anyway that was it, just thought I'd let everyone know how my day went.
This is Benji Dude, asking you to talk a walk in my birthday shoes!
Thursday, 28 February 2008
Tuesday, 12 February 2008
And it's gone!
So I've just found out that "Amanda" logged into her myspace the other day. Great! you'd think, right... no. It's very much the complete opposite of great. It's very much bad, very bad. It's bad because she hasn't sent me a message back, nada, zip, zero, cero, diddle-squat, nothing, not a dickie, a distinct lack of presence, vapour-ware, void, nothing. At all.
I know I should take it as a hint and move on, but like I've said before I can't. The events of my youth haunt me to this day, I need answers damn it! Cold hard answers, not avoidance answers. I don't know maybe I'm jumping the gun a little, maybe she's taking her time formulating a suitable answer, maybe I'm in total denial but who the fuck cares!? End of the day I'm still without the answers I need, still plagued by my past. Would it really be so hard for her to write a few words back to me, I'm not expecting fucking Shakespeare! Hell a simple "Hi, how are you?" would have done!
Of course the timing of all this is just perfect isn't it? What with Valentines day just a few days away. I despise valentines day not because it's a cheap ass holiday but because all the happy couples are out in force rubbing it right into your lonely hart face. 23 years, 23 fucking years I've had to put up with couples being all happy and joyful while I've been alone. I'm fucking sick of it! Isn't it about time I had someone to care for? Someone who cared for me? I'm a nice guy, and believe it or not I'm actually quite a romantic. But none of you want that do you? Sure you say you do but when it comes down to it you want that fuckin' dunce with the tree trunk arms and chiselled jaw line. Fucking god damn double standards.
I suppose now you can all see how much this bothers me. Quite a sudden and violent outburst like that, who would have thought that no communication could hurt so much. She probably thinks she is sparing me pain, but let this go out to all the women of the world, silence is a killer, be honest and straight up with us poor men, we're only simple creatures after all.
I don't know how else to try and get the answers I want from her, I've tried being friendly and got no answer, I've totally blunt and honest with her and got no answer, I've even done the middle ground and got nothing. The only thing left that I can think of is to stalk her and that's something I'm not prepared to do, I'm just not that desperate and it doesn't help anyone in the long run.
I'm just a lonely soul trying to find some meaning in it all.
This is Benji Dude, asking you to please, please, give me some answers.
I know I should take it as a hint and move on, but like I've said before I can't. The events of my youth haunt me to this day, I need answers damn it! Cold hard answers, not avoidance answers. I don't know maybe I'm jumping the gun a little, maybe she's taking her time formulating a suitable answer, maybe I'm in total denial but who the fuck cares!? End of the day I'm still without the answers I need, still plagued by my past. Would it really be so hard for her to write a few words back to me, I'm not expecting fucking Shakespeare! Hell a simple "Hi, how are you?" would have done!
Of course the timing of all this is just perfect isn't it? What with Valentines day just a few days away. I despise valentines day not because it's a cheap ass holiday but because all the happy couples are out in force rubbing it right into your lonely hart face. 23 years, 23 fucking years I've had to put up with couples being all happy and joyful while I've been alone. I'm fucking sick of it! Isn't it about time I had someone to care for? Someone who cared for me? I'm a nice guy, and believe it or not I'm actually quite a romantic. But none of you want that do you? Sure you say you do but when it comes down to it you want that fuckin' dunce with the tree trunk arms and chiselled jaw line. Fucking god damn double standards.
I suppose now you can all see how much this bothers me. Quite a sudden and violent outburst like that, who would have thought that no communication could hurt so much. She probably thinks she is sparing me pain, but let this go out to all the women of the world, silence is a killer, be honest and straight up with us poor men, we're only simple creatures after all.
I don't know how else to try and get the answers I want from her, I've tried being friendly and got no answer, I've totally blunt and honest with her and got no answer, I've even done the middle ground and got nothing. The only thing left that I can think of is to stalk her and that's something I'm not prepared to do, I'm just not that desperate and it doesn't help anyone in the long run.
I'm just a lonely soul trying to find some meaning in it all.
This is Benji Dude, asking you to please, please, give me some answers.
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